Dreams & Aspirations

Kurt and I’s life is changing.  That is because he has been accepted into Denver Seminary and starts classes in January. I am so excited for my husband and feel so blessed I get to support him through this adventure. This has been his dream pretty much since I have known him and it is so great to see God working and moving him to his dreams.  With this great news comes the obvious hesitation of money and time. This first semester Kurt will still work full time and attend two classes. The great thing is he can do homework at work. Throughout the semester we will re-evaluate how this is working and see what we need to change. It is great that he is able to work full time, but as his wife I support his dream and want school to be over work. If this means he doesn’t work full time next semester then I have faith that God will provide. I am so grateful that Kurt gets to experience this and get his masters in counseling.

Sometimes when people in my life start to move forward I begin to feel stagnant. To be fair I have been feeling more stagnant with certain areas of my life for a couple months now. With Kurt going to school and others around me moving forward, it makes me look at my life and wonder what my dreams are. I mean when I first started college I wanted to be a professional photographer, which I knew was a big dream, but I was determined. I love my creative side and would love to be able to dust it off more often. Then a couple of years ago after my fourth trip across seas, I felt God calling me to more than photography. This is when I began my pursuit into a human services degree and started volunteering at non-profits. After a couple semesters I ended up working at a non-profit, continue to work there, and love every minute of it. So what is my life dream? I don’t know exactly, but I do know that I don’t want to be stagnant. I want to take on new adventures and use my skills God gave me. I want to be a wonderful wife to Kurt. I want to grow in my job and be a good employee. I want to do what God calls me to do without hesitation. I want to take more pictures and use my creative side more. Honestly I don’t know what my dream is right now, but I do know I feel God moving.

Sometimes when I think of what my life’s dreams are, I think of that scene from Mr. Deeds, when he asks everyone what their dreams were when they were kids. I don’t know if I have a solid answer for my life dreams. I mean just a few weeks ago I went to dinner with some good friends, and one of them asked what my life dream was. I didn’t have an answer for her. It has had me thinking for a while. I may not have a life dream at this point, but I do know that I love God and trust that He has a plan for me. Maybe for this season of my life I am called to grow as a wife to my husband who is taking on his life dreams that God has called him too. I am extremely happy with where I am at in life; I just don’t want my life to become stagnant. 

P.S. It has been a while since I have done photos but I want to do it again, so if anyone wants pictures for free let me know, I want more practice.

Thankfulness

Well it has been quite some time since my last post, so I thought I would take some time today to write again. I wanted to write what I am thankful for. I know it is a little cliche being Thanksgiving and all but I still wanted to take some time to do this.

Having things to be thankful for is a blessing in itself, I mean I have so much to be thankful I could write pages upon pages. So many people in this world don't have things to be thankful for; sometimes because they have nothing, other times because they can't see what they have and always want more. Thank you God for everything in my life and everything you provide and give......

I am thankful for my husband, the man of my dreams, my best friend, Kurt.  I love him so much, and since the day I met him, I couldn't imagine life without him. Kurt you are so supportive of me and everything I do. You encourage and challenge me in my faith, which keep me growing closer to God. You put up with my spontaneous adventures and craziness. You love me for who I am. We have so much fun together. I can be me around you. I love you so much and I am so thankful for you everyday.

I am thankful for our dog Meeko. Yes I know he is a dog... But he is such a good dog and I am thankful that Kurt and I were able to rescue him from a puppy rescue. Meeko you make me laugh at least once a day, so glad you are apart of our family. 

I am thankful for family. My parents, my brother, my soon to be sister in-law, my grandparents, my uncles and aunts, my cousins, my great grandparents. Everyone in my family! Each one of them have such a special place in my heart. Mom and Dad thank you for being the best parents. Thank you for raising me the way you did. Thank you for always being there for me no matter what issues I brought to you. Thank you for never giving up on David or me. Thank you for choosing to continue to work on your relationship and show David and I what marriage is about. Grandparents, thank you for loving and spoiling us. I always look forward to seeing you, thank you for creating a healthy family environment for David and I. Uncles and Aunts, thank you for the life lessons and the fun times. Cousins, thank you for the fun times we have when we do see each other. Great grandparents, thank you for the love that you poured into our family. I haven't met all of my great grandparents, but I am thankful that I got to grow up with some, most people don't. Great Grandpa, you are so amazing and you had such a special place in my heart. I wish you could have met Kurt but I know that you are watching form heaven. I love you and miss you! Thank you to all my family for everything, I love each one of you so much!

I am thankful for friends, all of them. Friends get you through life, the good times and the bad. To my friends I don't talk to that much anymore, the ones who got me through high school, Thank you. Thank you for the good times. We had a lot of fun together, I know we have all gone our own ways for the most part, but I will not forget the parts of life each of you helped me get through, or the randomness of the times we hung out. You know the James Bond, football, hide and go seek with cars, and all the other times. Thank you for being apart of my life. To the friends I grew up with, the ones that I may not talk to all the time. Thank you for the fact that I know if anything happens I can always call and you will be there, and same back. To my bridesmaids, the ones who supported Kurt and I in our marrige. I love each one of you. Each one of you have a special place in our relationship as you guided and supported our relationship and still do. I know the distance in miles makes it hard to be as close, but I consider each of you to be my close friends and I am so grateful to each of you. Thank you! To all my  friends, thank you for being there, thank you for listening in those times when venting is necessary, thank you for the fun adventures, I hope that I can only be as good of friend back. 

I am also thankful for my job. I am thankful for my co-workers, each one of them put their heart into their work and make me want to be a better person. I am thankful for our girls that we work with, each one of them show so much courage by working hard for themselves and their children.

I am thankful for so so much more, but I think I will end it here. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Thank you to everyone who is apart of my life, each one of you mean so much to me. Enjoy eating turkey today, if that is what you do, and spending time with loved ones. Hopefully I will write again soon!.

First time at this....

This is my very first blog. I usually have no interest in writing but lately have been thinking more about it, so I guess we will see where this goes. I have some friends that have blogs and I guess have been inspired from them. Lately life has been changing, almost every week for the last couple months something has changed. Usually I am a person that welcomes change. I mean when I was in college I changed my school and study programs three times. Even with jobs I would change after being in a job for a couple years. Lately I have been struggling with the changes. I was content with my life and excited to not be seeking out change. Then all the sudden things started to change. With all this change it forced me to seek after God more in my every day life. I have learned a lot over the last few months from God but I still feel like I can't rest. I feel like I am walking on egg shells, just waiting for the next unexpected change. For a person that used to enjoy change, I am tired of change. Through all of this time these changes haven't necessarily been in my life, more in my husbands life. I have been trying so hard to support him through everything and I believe that he sees that support. The interesting thing is that as much as I am tired of change right now, I also have the desire to change things in my life. For so many years I have just changed things in my life to force myself to grow. But this time I feel that I am in the right places, where God has really called me to be. So instead of changing my surroundings, I am working on setting goals to grow in the places where I am. To grow my relationship with God, to grow my relationship with Kurt and my marriage, to grow myself, and to grow in my hobbies. Of course I am still working on these goals and I know it will be a while before they are completed but I am excited about the goals I have set and hoping that I can work hard on completing them. Thanks for reading this first post.