Kurt and I’s life is changing. That is because he has been accepted into
Denver Seminary and starts classes in January. I am so excited for my husband
and feel so blessed I get to support him through this adventure. This has been
his dream pretty much since I have known him and it is so great to see God working
and moving him to his dreams. With this
great news comes the obvious hesitation of money and time. This first semester
Kurt will still work full time and attend two classes. The great thing is he
can do homework at work. Throughout the semester we will re-evaluate how this
is working and see what we need to change. It is great that he is able to work
full time, but as his wife I support his dream and want school to be over work.
If this means he doesn’t work full time next semester then I have faith that God
will provide. I am so grateful that Kurt gets to experience this and get his
masters in counseling.
Sometimes when people in my life start to move forward I
begin to feel stagnant. To be fair I have been feeling more stagnant with
certain areas of my life for a couple months now. With Kurt going to school and
others around me moving forward, it makes me look at my life and wonder what my
dreams are. I mean when I first started college I wanted to be a professional
photographer, which I knew was a big dream, but I was determined. I love my
creative side and would love to be able to dust it off more often. Then a
couple of years ago after my fourth trip across seas, I felt God calling me to
more than photography. This is when I began my pursuit into a human services
degree and started volunteering at non-profits. After a couple semesters I
ended up working at a non-profit, continue to work there, and love every minute
of it. So what is my life dream? I don’t know exactly, but I do know that I don’t
want to be stagnant. I want to take on new adventures and use my skills God
gave me. I want to be a wonderful wife to Kurt. I want to grow in my job and be
a good employee. I want to do what God calls me to do without hesitation. I
want to take more pictures and use my creative side more. Honestly I don’t know
what my dream is right now, but I do know I feel God moving.
Sometimes when I think of what my life’s dreams are, I
think of that scene from Mr. Deeds, when he asks everyone what their dreams
were when they were kids. I don’t know if I have a solid answer for my life
dreams. I mean just a few weeks ago I went to dinner with some good friends,
and one of them asked what my life dream was. I didn’t have an answer for her.
It has had me thinking for a while. I may not have a life dream at this point,
but I do know that I love God and trust that He has a plan for me. Maybe for this season of my life I am called to grow as a wife to my husband who is taking on his life dreams that God has called him too. I am extremely happy with where I am at in life; I just don’t want my life to become stagnant.
P.S. It has been a while since I have done photos but I want
to do it again, so if anyone wants pictures for free let me know, I want more
practice.
